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Hi, Warriors.
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Welcome to One in Three.
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I'm your host, Ingrid.
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Today's episode is an interesting one.
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My guest, Tara, is a domestic violence survivor who not only allowed herself the space to heal from her past trauma, but has stepped into helping others heal as well.
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She now works as an intuitive healer, and our conversation explores what that really means and what healing can look like beyond the traditional path.
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Join us for this deeply honest and fascinating discussion.
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Hi, Tara.
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Thank you so much for joining me and welcome to One and Three.
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Thank you so much for having me.
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I'm excited.
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Our prior conversation was beautiful.
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I've been waiting for this moment to connect with you again.
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And honored, absolutely honored to get to be here in this space with you, with your listeners, with your community.
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It's truly a blessing.
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And we are all happy to have you.
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I know when we spoke in our pre-interview, I was telling you that I have a huge interest in accents.
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And I was super excited to sort of figure out where you were from, but I missed it by a little bit.
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I think I said Canada.
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But you did.
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Yeah.
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Yes.
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It was close.
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You missed it only by 10 miles.
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So we're really close.
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That was really good.
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That is really good.
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Okay.
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So we know that you're not Canadian, but could you share a little bit more about yourself just so we can get to know you some?
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Yeah, absolutely.
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So I live uh far north central Minnesota all my life.
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This is where I've been, haven't left.
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And I was going to go on, but I'm gonna just like not go on about that.
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We don't need to know why I'm still here.
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So as Ingrid said, my name is Tara.
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I'm an intuitive healer.
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I am married to my husband today that I love and I'm blessed to have in my life.
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I'm a mom of three incredible boys that I love.
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And I have a daughter-in-law.
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I am a dog mom and a chicken mom.
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And I love helping women to step into their authenticity by releasing all the trauma blockages, the energetic blockages, things from past lives, this life, passed down energetically, any of those imprints that are keeping them stuck out of alignment with their truth, not able to speak their truth, not able to be their truth.
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I help them clear it out and release it so that they can finally step into being the woman that they desire to be.
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Yes, that's perfect.
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I don't know that we talked about chickens.
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Did we?
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Probably not.
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I have chicken, I have chickens too.
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That's iconics.
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And mine just started upping their laying.
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And you know, they slowed down over the winter and they had slowed down quite a bit.
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And now I have I think I have like four dozen eggs in my house.
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I'm just eating eggs for like every meal.
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But okay, so back to you.
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And uh so you have personal experience with trauma, and that's one of the reasons that you kind of went into this whole learning how to cleanse yourself of trauma, correct?
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Yeah, yeah.
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I a lot of people call it a dark night of the soul.
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I'd never heard that until I stepped into my spiritual journey and became the healer that I'd always been meant to be.
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So I've had a lot of dark nights of the souls where I've lost myself, where I've really been in that space of trying to figure out does life really matter?
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What am I here for?
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What's the purpose of being here?
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Is it going to ever improve?
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And there's been a lot of traumatic experiences that I've experienced from loss of death, from rapings, from violent domestic assault.
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There's been a number of things that I've experienced.
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Yeah.
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And I just, and you don't have to go into full detail about each of those experiences, but I know for the listeners, it is nice to hear somebody that they can actually relate to and to understand that you're not just this person who's talking about trauma who's never experienced trauma.
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You are you're one of us.
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And so it it wasn't a completely easy journey to cleanse yourself.
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Do you can you talk about the healing process and how all of that came about?
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What made you recognize it had to happen and what you're doing?
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Yeah, it wasn't easy.
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And I think the most difficult piece of it is I wouldn't allow myself to experience healing.
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So how I see it when I when I visualize what the past was like before I allowed myself to step into the space and to heal myself was I was on the outside.
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It's like I had this bubble, and inside the bubble were all these women, and I was healing them.
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I was doing the work that I was doing.
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And this is prior to me becoming an intuitive healer, which resulted as the loss of my baby sister to cancer.
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And she's the one that guided me into knowing that this was who I was created to be.
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And prior to that, I was a coach, a weight loss coach.
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I'd always use healing to help women to lose weight.
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And there was a lot of trauma that was experienced in those situations as we were moving them through the weight loss journey.
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And they were inside this bubble.
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And I was always standing outside and I would give them, like I see it, like I'd give them all these experiences of healing.
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I'd help them.
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They were living life to the fullest.
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And I was always on the outside of this bubble, wishing that I could have a life like my clients, wishing that I could be one of them, wishing that I could be good enough to receive someone like me, and I could be on the inside of the bubble, and my coach would be on the outside, helping me, guiding me, giving me what I was giving to my women.
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And losing my sister, stepping into this spiritual journey, becoming an intuitive healer, really discovering and finding myself, allowed me to begin to give myself permission to heal, to forgive myself.
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Because I'd held all of these very traumatic experiences in my life as me being the reason.
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If I wouldn't have done this, I wouldn't have experienced this.
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If I wouldn't have been this person said this, showing up here, none of it would have happened.
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And so I blamed myself and I held myself responsible for all the hurt that occurred to me.
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And that made me believe that I didn't deserve happiness, that I didn't deserve love and any of those high-frequency emotions that I truly desired to have.
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I think what you just said is something that's probably relatable to so many people.
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I think everyone is just nodding their heads right now or raising their hands.
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If you're driving, keep at least one of the hands on the wheel.
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But yeah.
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Right.
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But yeah, permission to heal.
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That is that is so huge because I think that's so beautifully said, because that's exactly what it is.
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You think, oh, I need to heal something that I'll get to, or maybe it's something you feel like you don't deserve.
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Like you said, you take responsibility for a lot of the things that happen to you.
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And I think that also makes sense as far as why you, as being somebody who's helping others heal, like you're you're not allowing yourself that ability to do it yourself.
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And I think a lot of us who have been, especially, you know, various stages of trauma, but those who have been in abusive relationships do also feel that responsibility of helping those around them.
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You know, I gave my abuser a lot of, if I do this, it will help him.
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If I change this, he'll get better.
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And I really focused on him.
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And I know that others who are in different relationships are focused on everyone else.
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Perhaps they have an elderly parent that's living with them, or they have children or pets or whatever, that they have to make sure they're all okay before taking care of themselves.
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Or, sorry, I'm going on a tangent.
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On the flip side, for those of you who are friends or family of somebody who's being abused, you are constantly taking care of them.
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And at the same time, you're not taking care of yourself because you're you're just so giving.
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So it's this whole scenario of all these people who are not allowing themselves to heal.
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Yeah.
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And I, you know, I also like taking it another step further, looking at it that way.
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Like we think that we care for the people in our lives, we keep them safe, or we keep them happy, or we do right by them, as long as we're always keeping ourselves really good.
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And so I always think about it like I remember walking around and I get full goosebumps when I go back to that moment.
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And I know that some of you women listening to this are going to be triggered by that.
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And I just am going to ask you to place one hand on your heart, one hand on your belly.
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And the reason why I'm asking you to do that is to calm your central nervous system, just so that it doesn't re-trigger you or bring you into that depth of being back in that place.
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I've worked enough that I can put myself right back into that spot spot and I won't spiral out.
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So, and it started with me calming my central nervous system.
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But back to what I was saying is being in that space, when I go back there, I remember always just like really almost having horse blinders.
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My dad grew up.
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I grew up, or I grew up with my dad raising horses and he would put horse blinders on them.
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And it's like you're walking straight forward and making sure that there's no bomb.
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Like you're just being very careful for everything you do.
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I remember just placing my fork down carefully, not eating too fastly, not making too loud of a noise, not saying the wrong thing, always watching for that landmine that I didn't want to step on.
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And we see that.
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We see that as a way of protecting people in our life by keeping ourselves good, being the good one, always being aware of how we show up, what we do, chastising ourselves for being ridiculous, for being too loud, for being, you know, rude because we would like to take something longer than a three-minute shower.
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You know, we look at it that way.
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So that's another way, and I want to preface that and put that out there because we women don't realize sometimes that that's how we are, and men too.
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I have to say men.
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I speak and work with women, but there are men that have experiences like this as well.
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And that's how we think we're taking care of people.
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And on the flip side of it is we're absolutely just continuing to put ourselves deeper and deeper into this despair of never feeling like we can get out of it.
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And I, okay, so yes, I agree with all of that.
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Yes.
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But okay, so one practice I think that is really important that you're so many people get lost in this like frenzy of just survival.
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And it is hard to reground themselves.
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So, do you have something that I know you mentioned putting your hand on your chest and on your belly?
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Are there other techniques to help?
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Uh and this may not be the cure all for healing, especially if you're still in this relationship, but something to even just for a moment reground yourself to clear your mind to be able to figure out what to do next.
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Yeah.
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So definitely that calming your central nervous system is one way to do anytime you can ground yourself.
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That is extremely important.
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Putting yourself in a space of protection when you can ground and protect.
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A mentor of mine taught me what she called GCP, ground clear, protect.
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And I'd love to just send it through quick, just share it.
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Could I like take you through it and allow your listeners also?
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Yes, I would love that.
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Let's do it.
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So, for everybody that is listening, if you're driving, you can do this.
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Just keep your eyes open.
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If you're not driving and you're able to close your eyes and definitely, please do that.
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So, what I want you to do right now is just take eyes closed, take a deep breath in through your nose.
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Exhale out through your mouth.
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And now I want you to see this is the G, the ground.
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I want you to see the center of Earth, Mother Earth.
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I want you to see an element that she's going to send up to you.
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It might be tree roots, it might be pebbles, it might be rocks, anything.
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It could be feathers, it could be cotton balls, whatever is unique to you, Mother Earth is sending it up to you right now.
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Through earth, coming all the way up.
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Now you feel it in the bottom of your feet.
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And I want you to just let this element come all the way up into your legs, into your hips, into your belly, into your chest, the front of your face, coming to the top of your head, allowing it to go down the back of your head, down your neck, all the way down the center of your back, feeling it coming down to the back, into your butt cheeks, and then down the backs of your legs and right back out the bottom of your feet, all the way down into Mother Earth.
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Notice how you feel so grounded.
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Literally, right now, I feel like if my chair were to flip upside down, I would be still stuck to the chair.
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Important to note if this doesn't feel like that for you, practice, practice, practice, and you'll get it.
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So that was ground.
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Now we clear.
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Go to the top of your head.
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That's your crown chakra.
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Wind, water, fire, dirt.
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That's earth.
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One of those elements will feel strong for you.
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Again, wind, fire, water, dirt.
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See whichever comes forward for you.
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Don't judge it, just trust it.
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And now, whatever that element is, for me right now, it's fire.
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See it come through the top of your head and watch that element flush all the way through your body.
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And as it's flushing, you'll notice you feel like an opening, almost like coolness coming through your entire body.
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You might see puffs of black or puffs of dark color or puffs of like yuck.
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Sometimes we hear sounds leaving our body.
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Sometimes we get energy moving through our entire body.
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Bring all that element all the way through the bottom of your feet.
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Just feel how your body is just opening up.
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It's clearing, clearing, clearing, clearing.
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And now we go to the P, the protect.
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At the bottom of your feet, you see this glass plate.
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Choose in this moment the intention of thickness.
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Do you want it two inches, five inches, ten inches?
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How thick do you need this bubble we're going to create to be for protection?
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And now I want you to see this bubble come all the way up around you, surrounding you, front, back, sides, all the way to the top, and you hear it close.
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And it now it's like you're locked tight inside this bubble.
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And I want you to go from stand on the outside, look in, stand on the outside, turn and look and see yourself inside this bubble.
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See yourself protected in that bubble.
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Feel that in your heart, how that makes you feel.
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And now all negative energy bounces off my bubble.
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And only that for which is of my highest good is allowed inside my bubble.
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Thank you.
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It is done.
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It is done.
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Thank you.
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And now you can open your eyes.
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That's so cool.
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Yeah.
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And so now you just notice that things feel clear.
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Anything that was there that was penetrating your mind, making you feel unsettled, feeling like you just couldn't show up as yourself.
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It's not there.
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And I feel so open.
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My mind isn't cascading with all this noise that's not mine.
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It's totally mine.
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Now it's important to know if something is still there, you're being triggered by something, it means there's something in that situation that you need to be dealing with.
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And oftentimes in abusive situations, obviously we know what there is that needs to be dealt with.
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And once you do the GCP and you continue to use this, you begin to get that protection really strong.
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That means things, people start coming in that help you move through this in a healthy, safe way and gives you that ability to be able to exit out of that situation or see the situation improve in a way that you never thought was possible.
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So is that something that you do routinely with your intuitive healing?
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Every single morning, I sit on the edge of my bed and I do that immediately.
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There is nothing I do except for that very first thing in the morning.
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I did it before I came on here to make sure I cleared everything out so that I was ready to be with you.
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And also periodically throughout the day when I've spent time with people.
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When we're out, when when we have somebody that comes in our life that is not safe for us, it's very important for us to be aware of that.
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We're happy, we're singing.
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Many of your listeners know that.
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They're like, man, I was I was singing and dancing and I was cooking and I was whistling and I was feeling so good.
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And all of a sudden, I just felt my energy just plummet out of me, like it was gone.
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And I felt like I had to go to the corner and I needed to go into fetal position.
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Your energy was just being attacked by somebody that verbally, mentally, physically attacks you.
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Now, since you are so aware of all of this, can you get those feelings from if you passed somebody by on the street?
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Do you get those sensations from people that you've never met before?
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Instantly.
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Instantly, the hair in the back of my neck rises.
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Instantly, I feel like something's crawling across my back, and I just know something's not okay.
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Yeah, absolutely.
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And is that just so the intuitive part is that just recognizing, really listening to what's happening to your body?
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Listening, being aware, trusting.
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That's you know, it's so easy for us to hear or feel something or get this knowing, and then just brushing it off, being like, oh, you're just being ridiculous.
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You're being ridiculous.
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The thing to know with intuition, intuition is never fight or flight, like fear-based.
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It's net, it's always calm.
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It's always going to sound like your voice.
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And it's going to be, you probably should look to your right in this moment very slowly.